My Life Is Not My Own

Well, its been quite a while since I've posted anything on here. I may be slacking in this area, but trust me, that means I'm finding other things to do with my time!! Which isn't all that bad, but if you're an avid follower of my blog well... you poor thing.

Anyway, I've just been able to sit back and watch all of the events of my life kind of play out the way they will. I used to think 'I am SO in charge of my life. I have so many decisions I have to make, and I need to make them right.' How arrogant, I know. Because honestly, if we could control any and everything that happened in our lives, EVERYTHING would happen the way we think it should. We'd get the wonderful career we've always dreamed of, never be in want of anything, get that prince charming we've been so hoping to find, and have the beautiful children that are always obedient who grow up to be good, upstanding and honest people. But here's the thing, if that was the way life played out, would we really learn anything from it? Would we be able to sit back and say, 'Yeah, I've grown as a person and I've learned a lot of life lessons.' I'm not sure I think so. Actually, I'm sure. I don't think so.

So back to my original thought. You know, the one 'I am SO in charge of my life. I have so many decisions I have to make, and I need to make them right.' Yeah, that one. My opinion of that has also changed. Yes, it is important to make good decisions. It's important to desire good things in life. But I think we give ourselves too much credit in that area. See, a lot of people don't see it this way but well, I do. My life is not my life. My life is my God's life. No matter what decisions I make, He will always 100% of the time impose His will over my own. I'm not saying it's a bad thing. In fact, it's quite the opposite. It's wonderful! Why? Because it's so comforting to know that my life is in fact in someone else' steady, sure hands. That I can make a wrong turn, but if I desire to do the right thing, that He'll lead me back to the path He wants me on. I can know that I'm never ever alone. Even on days when I feel like I've made every member of my family angry, that I feel like one thing after another is going wrong (or maybe not so much wrong, but not the way I wanted it to go) that I still have someone I can rely on. I still have a shoulder to cry on, and someone to share my joys with. So even if all of the relationships in my life are going to crap, I still have one I can always strengthen and work on. And that is my relationship with my Heavenly Father.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is, it's important for me to put my trust in the Lord. Because in the end, He knows what's best for me more than anybody else.